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This is suppose to be the big one. The one where I tell you how much I am going to get done this year. Where I lay out the master plan, tell you how the great execution will be delivered and at the end of the year I will show everyone how well and beyond my great plan made out.

Well, I stand here today without a plan. I just can’t do it. There are too many things that are not even in place so that I can just be stable. (this means I can’t get work, right now).

This does not mean I don’t want to have a plan. I want one, I have an idea of what it could look like. When my basic needs come together, I know that my master plan will too.

The best I can offer to you right now is some basic stuff.

I have two or three screenplays that are coming together and will be finished within the first quarter.
I will be going back to the Sarasota Film Festival to participate in the events.
Somehow, someway I will participate in the 48 hour film project - (I so want this to be my own crew.)
If at all possible I want to get another short under my belt.

All in all I am in a good place, physically and emotionally. I have the best friends anyone could ask for. If I could get the financial thing straight it would be aces.

I am hoping to post monthly if not more.

Knowing when to give up on a goal is a hard realization. (Not really giving up, but I am postponing it indefinitely.)

There were several factors that led me to this decision. Not one of them, I believe, were of the “chickening out” type.

1. There just wasn’t enough money

I believe that 3 months salary was what I was shooting for. I could have come up with about a month. If I knew I had enough income once I got to California, then this would not be a problem, but nothing was 100%

2. My demo reel was lacking

The demo reel I had was over two years old and I couldn’t get a job off of it. It is kind of sad as I know that I could make a really great demo with some time.

3. The economy is really unstable (duh)

Unless you are living under a rock, you know that the economy has tanked. We as a people haven’t seen it hit us… yet. (Is this what they ment by trickle down economics?)

So as these things may have prevented me from going to California, they have not stopped me from my dreams. I intend to sink deep into my writing over the winter and would like to emerge with a few screenplays and shoot one of them in the spring.

Also, I had been approached to direct a music video. I am really, really looking forward to this.

I appreciate everyones support and believe me I can stil use the wtgs and OMGWTFs as I continue to embark on my filmmaking journey.

Have a great week and I will update soon.

Eddie

One of the coolest things in the world today is being able to share your dreams, goals and eventual adventures with the Internet -

Meet Dereck a guy that has decided to pack his bags and tour around the southeast this winter by bike, gather sponsors for the trip and donate money to charity. This he calls C.U.B.E.

Like most goal seekers (like me) he has had to modify his goal slightly to make this work.

He also needs your help to make this happen.

Please view his website and if you feel like I do, please give consideration.

I am moving to Los Angeles in the begining of November.

In the last year, I have much happen to me. Some good; some bad. I am not the kind of person that takes my days lightly. I wake up get my breakfast, get a shower, go to work. But I also look for new ways to expand or achieve my goals. When I arrived in Lexington I told myself I will stay here for a few months and then go to California.

Well something happened, ok many things but the biggest one was putting off that goal to get to California. I would want to settle here, then I wanted to leave. Back and forth like a lazy swing in the summer breeze that has enough perpetual motion to keep going for months on end. Last month was my last procrastinating that I was going to do. I challenged myself to get contacts in the LA area that could help mentor me on my way to become the filmmaker that I wanted to be.

I received a response.

Then I thought, well I can get a place of my own, live here for another year and then …..wait, what? Why am not packing my bags and leaving - oh yeah I have decent job, of course it is not what I want to do, but it pays, not so much. I have so many reasons not to make this leap to that I could keep myself here forever.

List of reasons to not leap:

1. Probably fail (this one is easily dismissed by me - I will fail if I don’t go)
2. Probably won’t follow through (This is a biggie for me)
3. Not enough money to leap
4. I am 42 (not a spring chicken)

Following Through: This is a toughie, see if I follow through I reap the rewards of being accomplished. I am not going to expound on the opposite of this for my own reasons - I cannot and will not let this be the only thing to stop me and I hope through this blog I can follow through.

Not Enough Money to Leap: Yeah I don’t know what to do about this except save the money from my job for the next two months and I will place ads at the bottom of my posts, I hope it does not become intrusive and I know that it won’t make enough for me to live, but maybe, just maybe it will buy me a bagel in Los Angels.

I am 42: For me being 42 does not mean anything except for a number of years that I have existed on this material plane. I am grateful for the years so this does not translate into any fear except those placed upon me through the outside world.

I was told when I was very very young, that I could do anything that I wanted to do, sell anything that I believed in to anyone. Wow, those are some powerful attributes to place on someone so young. I feel that I was given this boost in ego by this person because of several reasons, but the biggest thing that came of it, is that I STILL BELIEVE IT.

So follow me, if you will, on my journey to California and beyond. Maybe we will learn something.