I am moving to Los Angeles in the begining of November.
In the last year, I have much happen to me. Some good; some bad. I am not the kind of person that takes my days lightly. I wake up get my breakfast, get a shower, go to work. But I also look for new ways to expand or achieve my goals. When I arrived in Lexington I told myself I will stay here for a few months and then go to California.
Well something happened, ok many things but the biggest one was putting off that goal to get to California. I would want to settle here, then I wanted to leave. Back and forth like a lazy swing in the summer breeze that has enough perpetual motion to keep going for months on end. Last month was my last procrastinating that I was going to do. I challenged myself to get contacts in the LA area that could help mentor me on my way to become the filmmaker that I wanted to be.
I received a response.
Then I thought, well I can get a place of my own, live here for another year and then …..wait, what? Why am not packing my bags and leaving - oh yeah I have decent job, of course it is not what I want to do, but it pays, not so much. I have so many reasons not to make this leap to that I could keep myself here forever.
List of reasons to not leap:
- Probably fail (this one is easily dismissed by me - I will fail if I don’t go)
- Probably won’t follow through (This is a biggie for me)
- Not enough money to leap
- I am 42 (not a spring chicken)
Following Through: This is a toughie, see if I follow through I reap the rewards of being accomplished. I am not going to expound on the opposite of this for my own reasons - I cannot and will not let this be the only thing to stop me and I hope through this blog I can follow through.
Not Enough Money to Leap: Yeah I don’t know what to do about this except save the money from my job for the next two months and I will place ads at the bottom of my posts, I hope it does not become intrusive and I know that it won’t make enough for me to live, but maybe, just maybe it will buy me a bagel in Los Angels.
I am 42: For me being 42 does not mean anything except for a number of years that I have existed on this material plane. I am grateful for the years so this does not translate into any fear except those placed upon me through the outside world.
I was told when I was very very young, that I could do anything that I wanted to do, sell anything that I believed in to anyone. Wow, those are some powerful attributes to place on someone so young. I feel that I was given this boost in ego by this person because of several reasons, but the biggest thing that came of it, is that I STILL BELIEVE IT.
So follow me, if you will, on my journey to California and beyond. Maybe we will learn something.